I don't know how I'm doing (numerically that is).....

So, scale #2 is now broken (I'm beginning to have a complex...).  When I stand on it it won't settle on a number and goes up and down in about a 7 lb range.  Sort of like the Biggest Loser scale before the "big reveal" yet I never get the "reveal".

Normally, I would freak out.  I would probably drag the scale all around the house (is the problem that the floor is not level in that particular spot---this is an old house and I know there are parts where it feels like the floor is not all that level).  Or, I would rush out to Wal-Mart in search for a new scale.

But, I didn't.  I struggle so much with the way that # makes me feel.  I hate that it can tell me how  I should feel about myself.

So, instead of worrying about a number loss/gain/maintain to report on my weekly blog this week I decided to give a qualitative summary:

• I did a pretty good job, most days.  Not every choice was the top choice, but overall---I did fine.  In fact, if I followed myself around all week---which, I did----I would say, "Hey that girl must eat pretty healthy".  
• I ate at one of my "pitfall" places for lunch twice this week---the Loras College "Cafe".  All I can eat for $5.  I chose great options both days and didn't "go back" for anything except more Diet Dew.  
• I still haven't put exercise  into my routine.  I didn't want to go out Monday and Tuesday because of the cold and the remainder of the week I was busy dealing with an issue at work.  

Eventually, and maybe soon I need to figure out what's going on with my scale and resolve the problem.  But I might not do that for a couple of more weeks.  

Overall, I'm surprised with how tough this seems to be.  It's seems to be way harder  than the weight I dropped after I had Aubri.  Not the eating/willpower part--I'm actually do really great.  But the seeing the results part.  I don't think it's coming off as easily.